Saturday, February 09, 2008


This question is being raised from the ancient times and will be raised till the end of the times ….because this is question which can be best answered at the end or after the end. The Question is “What is the most important thing in the life?”. Some say it is love, some say it is money, for some it is desire and for some it is happiness, some go with power and some advocates for pleasure and the most common answer would be mixture of all these. Apparently feelings like patience, fear, pain does not come in the solution set, but who knows. Even the God was not sure about this. In order to put an end to this, HE devised plan. A race was called, in which all the feelings and things were allowed to compete. The winner will settle this question forever. Now we all know, we are not even certain about what we want, so it was decided that whether conscious or unconscious, all human desires will power these feeling. The one getting more power will speed more and thus will win the race. Now this is what happened on the big day.

I was sitting in the front row. Love, Anger, Money, Pleasure, Pain, Lust, Happiness, Power, Popularity etc all were there in best of their outfits. Each connected themselves with the cordless power cord. The crowd was cheering for their favorites, if they have any. Some, confused people like me were just shouting aimlessly. They all will get power according to our true desires. With a bang the race began. Like a 100m run it looks like a tight race. It was hard to say who was leading and people were just screaming. Patience was loosing but amazingly pain was not so behind [God knows what really we want]. But definitely in the leading row there were Love, Money, and Popularity. In order to remove ambiguity about the rash decisions this was decided that it will be a lapped race. Everyone was talking that after the race the mystery would be solved. The race was now drawing to an end, still no clear winner. People were dashing each other, making room for themselves in order to have a clear view. At this moment I realized actually one was leading the race. It was someone whom I hadn’t seen till then. It was Acceptance. He was going to cross the finishing line and … and he did it. He won. He had a clear lead. It was amazing. I ran for him, but people were still shouting for their favorites. I said to the person standing next to me “but the race is over”. He said “no! It is not”. He was not even aware of it. Not only him, it seem neither participants nor the audience had noticed it. Acceptance was looking indifferent as he knew it always, I was surprised in all ways and the God was smiling.

Monday, October 01, 2007

i miss u yaar

I miss u yaar...we need u yaar.....

We all came into this world with little but our surroundings to shape us. So initially I didn’t get to play TT or
learn English grammer or a girl frend was totally due to those. However, somethings were there for which we only can be responsible, for eg: our innocence. For some of us playing nd winning became everything ,for some showing off was very important, for some "just chill -nothing matters" attitude came. Some pried to open their inner shell to themselves, some shut it tight. Some tried to hone up their skills, some tried to prove at what wasn’t their natural ability. I agree all these desires nd wishes have to be fuelled by surroundings , but the root cause have to be the inner nature , the true self. And the day we all were guided by that true shelf , we understood that its in our nature to wish,to desire,to achieve,to be at top,to be appreciated etc etc , may be the 7 sins. Precisely that day we all lost our innocence.

Initially just like all bad roads... it gave u gd fruits .. we plunged deeper we explored deeper and that road gave more fruits.. bigger nd better nd hence the seemingly forever increasing iterative process followed . But it was not to be, at one point or other we realized.. oops honey, I am in deep shit.. some realized sooner. Some latter.. the sooner the better was the case..
Now what to do…it’s a famous saying when in deep shit do not open ur mouth nd rue.. but here u need to do just that to get ur innocent heart back..

So I thought do I have the guts to spill all of me out to a person.. “NO” this came so quickly I was taken aback.. Oh I am beyond redemption , but again the reason can be just the surety for that person never going against me, all that trust issues etc etc. Still if I cant do that then do I have a frend?? Then I realized.. alas yes.. i don’t have many but I have sufficient number of frends to make me innocent nd alive again..
U c.. I may not tell all my acts nd thoughts to 1 single person but I can share many of my things with diff persons nd they all are my frends. Each helping me out in the way I can be helped some doing enough for me.. some more than enough and some major helps, but they all r thr to keep me sane .
However recently I have missed them very the past u have made me forget all my worries nd enjoy the trivial issues of life.. which I heartly used to enjoy..Guess we all never take time out to tell our frends we miss them.. but yes.. I miss U, abe I miss U yaar.

Feeling a bit light now.. yooooooooo !!!!!!!

Friday, August 24, 2007

chit chat


Boy: I love her more than the air I breath
Girl: well im always here for you.
Boy: I know.
Girl: What's wrong???
Boy: I like her so much.
Girl: Talk to her.
Boy: I don't know. She won't ever like me.
Girl: Don't say that. You're amazing.
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl: Then tell her.
Boy: She won't like me.
Girl: How do you know that?
Boy: I can just tell.
Girl: Well just tell her.
Boy: What should I say?
Girl: Tell her how much you like her.
Boy: I tell her that daily.
Girl: what do you mean?
Boy: I'm always with her. I love her.
Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he'll never like me.
Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
Girl: Oh some boy.
Boy: Oh... she won't like me either.
Girl: She does.
Boy: How do you know?
Girl: Because, who wouldn't like you?
Boy: You.
Girl: You're wrong, I love you.
Boy: I love you too.
Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

falling in love at mayurakshi

This blog is dedicated to blogs of bhavesh " falling in love" nd deepak "mayurakshi"..

My name is deepesh bhavak, i am a genuine good guy with almost all the necessary features to survive handsomely in this world. And we all know that apart from the basic necessities, the thing that defines the status of ur life is LOVE. I have seen many ppl perish in its search.
Some even lost the bigger picture i.e LIFE in search of the colour of that picture i.e Love. Some got those colours nd let it fade.But I am lucky, unlike some disasters, i have come out with flying colours. I am in love with a girl *****, and she loves me more than i do... nd thats where the tragedy begins...

I went away for a 1 day seminar to a place called kolkaida. It was a beautiful place,standing amidst mayurakshi river was a very tall building, 500mts tall... it was nearly dusk and the end of seminar. I went on top of the building thinking abt my love nd how will we spend the time in bed, later...

Suddenly a song "dil laga naa dil jale se dil jal jaayega" started playing and a smile swept across me. A sweet smile of like that of a good memory types. I picked up my mobile & whispered "hi, honey". she said she missed me, i thought, just like me. The breeze on top was getting stronger nd chilling. And at the other end she was ardent that she missed me more as she loved me more. i tried to deny it(grave mistake).

Her voice boomed into the earpeice & the words "i love you" rang infinitely. i returned the same 3 words but the breeze took it away. she was giggling now, coz she thought she had proven that she loves me more. I shouted again "i love you" with the top of my voice ,still no use, she egged me on.. come onnnn sweetieeee.. is that the best you can dooo... i slowly moved near the edge whr the crystal clear flowing water was beneath me & the darkish sky above me.. both seemed equally distant... I leaned a bit on the railing to escape the breeze & oh shit!!!.. the new shoes she had gifted me .. slipped.. i was falling for next 10 seconds as told to me by others.. and in those 10 second i wished.. oh god, why did i ever fall in love .. both meanings intended..
what has she given me .. kewal bakwas kich kich.. jheek jheek...faaltu ke nakhre nd gift exchange programme ke tahat saale new slippery sole wale shoes..kaas main apni purani chappal wali halat mein hi rehta.. yeh faltu ka ladki sab ko patane ke chakkar me lag gayi..

neway ab jo ho gaya so ho gaya.. but bhai log take my advice nd enjoy ur life..

a famous sms is ------
god tells i cant be everywhere thats why i made frends
devil : i also cant be everywhere that why i made girlfrends


Saturday, January 20, 2007

Real side of me

Thats how i express my WillPower nd Determination

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Am I the most stupid person in this world!!!....

why cant i trust someone completely.... why am i not able to think that,that someone is unselfish ..
why I am always so insecure abt my essence .. why i want that,that someone, who is think about me, think abt me always... why am i so possessive in this regard.. why i always end up imagining pessimistic things... why am i writing this down.... is it becoz, i am the most stupid person in this world!!!!!!

I think i am being stupid becoz i am placing the key to my happiness in some other person's hand.. but is that wrong....

I had happiness with me being the center of my universe.. slowly the idea of someone else at that position came into me... from then onwards it has been different... dont know what made me think of those ideas .. sayad umra ka dosh ho...
but now my new definition of happiness is due to that change only..nd i am not sure whether its temporary or permanent..i may get that happiness n may get fed up with it.. so am i wise in pursuing it... but again how will i be sure of it until i pursue it to the end...

huhh.. i am laughing rt now.. coz i am confused...
there is no value i place for my life of now... i think i have a built a black hole inside me... which sucks every happiness...

this is dangerous...
u c... i am still surviving .. i am out here in this world.. heartless,jealous, cruel & intelligent enuff to hide it and even take advantage... so beware!!!!!!

Monday, November 27, 2006


Life Happens... Love Happens....however, friendship is constructed ..
life ends... love ends... however, friendship needs to be demolished..

life is too strong a word to handle.. so leaving it out,i continue ...

Love has different meaning, different values.. Love is dual(ie. it can be bothsided/onesided)..thats why no authenticity how it carries itself with time...but what abt friendship..
Two ppl are required to build it.. nd its built on single
nd hence to demolish it you need those two persons...

Many a times you dismantle a part of structure to rebuild another...but to remove the base, the effort has to come from both...

And then there are times, when u r nailing in the wall to make something else but the hammer strikes the wall down.. this is where the strength of wall is checked,but still thats not the main point.. its important to understand that even in such a building there are lines,there are actions..which cant be done on the structure .. individually..

remember from now on ,my dear... Formality and informality go hand in hand.. u must learn to use the properly.. rather professionally...